Confused-Shoes

Crying at 2 pm, the sun so unforgiving

Afraid of death and tired of living

I no longer recognize my bed

The smoke has taken over my head

Playing songs that speak of loss

As I trace my wrists across

To understand peace, its why and how

Is the only thing that matters now

Bleeding deep inside I am almost full

They say hope is there but I can’t feel the pull

That’s supposed to uplift my weary heart

For all year long I’ve been torn apart

It’s hard not to panic and keep your cool

When the blood is a fast forming pool

Say good bye to the ones I love

`Coz I won’t be going to heaven above.

                             (interlude)

Visit the profile of the girl you love most

And leave a message, saying goodbye

And wonder, will she ever wonder why you said goodbye?

And smoke the last cigarette, it promised to bring a thrill

A sudden surge of happiness as you go for the kill

But why go for it when there are many things left to fix

Like the house, for the future, build a home

Like the heart, for the future, spread the love

Like the bench, for the future, enjoy the friendship

Like the books, for the future, nourish the mind

So many things indeed

But nothing catches my imagination now.

Drink to the health of your parents

And send text messages to your lovely nieces

And if you can, fill the donor card up

Your eye can bring happiness to those who cannot see

`Coz I’m not bothering anyone anymore, when no one has

Except to insist that you’ve done them something wrong

They admire you and they hate you and you wind up

Not speaking up, when your heart’s got a million libraries to say

But nevermind, it’s almost all over now, as long as I know

Today’s gonna be such a glorious day.